When your eating disorder fights against you,
that is because it feels threatened.

So fight little one;
keep on going.

Hear it’s voices screaming loud
until your voice
drowns it out.

N.J., Fight back twice as hard. (via painstained-letters)

No matter how many times I tell myself
that I do not need
to take myself to pieces
in order to be whole
I cannot seem to shake
the idea that if
I could just destroy myself
enough
maybe I could stop.

N.J., If I could just be bad enough, maybe I could get better. (via painstained-letters)

You’ve got to remember that
it is not an achievement
to self-destruct
and that comparing yourself
or your life
to other people
with similar problems
is never going to give you
an accurate picture
or enable you
to be proud
of the fact
you woke up this morning
and got breakfast
and you didn’t hurt yourself last night.

N.J., When bad feels like good. (via painstained-letters)

do you ever get in those moods where you don’t know how to feel and everything kinda feels mixed up and you’re just sitting there alone in your room trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with you

when someone cries because you said something nice to them, they’re someone who you need to protect because they haven’t seen enough kindness in the world.

I’m sick of people telling me it’s just a “get over it” situation. Fuck you. You don’t know what it’s like in my head.

Will McAvoy, The Newsroom (via stevenbong)

do you ever just wonder if there’s someone who secretly thinks about you and wants to talk to you but doesn’t know how